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Subject:Mod Post - Previous Entries.
Time:08:52 pm
This community is going to be advertized more soon. I advise those that don't want a couple of their posts seen from public view to go back and edit them to be friends only/member only.

Thanks.
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Subject:Hrm...
Time:09:55 pm
Current Mood:crankycranky
From the lack of replies to a post in my journal asking a few friends for opinions I take it my fears I posted to them are unfounded and I should STFU about them. I know my friends are probably busy and shit so this is no slam on them. But by this point (two days later) if there hasn't been a reply, they more then likely have forgotten about the post all together.

Which if that's the case, doesn't make me feel any better about it. Unless they just genuinely have no idea what to say. Who knows...

I'll get over it, I always do. Fuckin' passive personality. And that's some of the shit I'm trying to fix about my personality!

Then the catalyst for my mood, I miss a picnic with the guys last night that no one even mentioned. How is it I'm on the board and not one person from the board even remotely mentions this picnic?

Had to find out from a friend today about it. I'm really feeling out of the loop and I don't like it one damn bit.

Jesus fuckin' christ.
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Subject:be warned.. attitude level orange
Time:12:33 am
Current Mood:bitchybitchy
have you ever been so pissed off that you can't even write a complete sentence about just how pissed off you are? well. now you know where i'm at. however i'm going to try to explain this pissy ass mood.

it all started a couple weeks ago when marissa and i went to go see billy.. she adores him something fierce and he equally loves having her around.. which got us discussing the subject of children.

whilst i've always known he wanted them i wasn't aware that he had been thinking of adoption.. a process we both knew was complicated, difficult and more often times than not a no win situation.. nevertheless he wanted to go check it out and see if he could 'pass' to be added to the waiting families list.

he asked if i would be interested in going with him and i knew why that was.. but i didn't voice what we both knew to be true and instead agreed..

which brings us to yesterday.

we arrive at the independent adoption center in raleigh to meet with this lady in which we had an appointment with.. and amazingly enough things were going very very well until billy made a light and quick comment about his needing to find a 'husband'.

immediately blinders went on and alarms started wailing.

never in my life have i seen a woman leap from her chair that fast.

then not only did she proceed to blast him for being 'homosexual' but began to blast me for not only being with him but for being a 'noticeable minority'.

now whilst i do in fact belong to a minority race i don't think it's 'noticeable'. especially in the manner in which she was making it out to be.. so naturally i snapped.

and i mean snapped.

like no crowbar snapped.

i damn near flew overtop of her cluttered little desk and wrung her neck but billy happens to be a bit bigger than me so he held me back.. though i knew he truly wanted me to flatten the bitch like pancakes on a gridle.

so instead i unleashed a verbal assault that probably would have taken a normal typesetter all day to record.

fuck was i pissed off.

i mean.. excuse the fuck out of someone for being different.

fucking hell. fuck stupid ass bitches who can't see over their own paranoia.

so what right? we've been slandered before right? fuck yes, we have. but this was different, major, square and i probably wouldn't have gotten so angry and still be so angry if it wasn't for the look of defeat in his eyes.

that's what did it. that's when super fucking pissed off mood went into global full assault effect.

and i swear to the fates above that the next time i hear of some deadbeat alcoholic abusive asshole being able to adopt a child in this city just because he's 'straight' i will be hong kong phooeying with my mad ass bad ass chopstix from chopstix town.

anyone want some? come get it.

hatred full throttle is served.
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Time:02:30 pm
Current Mood:bitchybitchy
OMFG ok people who makes posts like this:

"i can't believe this happened, I don't know what to say or do" /endpost.

Need to be fucking shot. I know it's your journal and all but jesus, make that a private or something. Because naturally, your friends are going to msg you asking whats wrong. And of course, to annoy us more, you're not going to tell us or you're going to get annoyed because everyone is msg'ing you asking whats wrong.

I have a few people on my LJ like this and you know, if you don't want people to msg you or you don't want to talk about it, how about NOT making a post about it so your friends can read about it. If you just want to jot it down for journal purposes make it a private post. If for some reason you want people to read it anyways, at the end of the post put, "I don't feel like talking about it" or something! That way, you don't make your friends feel like assholes for being...well...friends.
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Subject:hardy har har har
Time:12:43 am
Current Mood:bitchybitchy
it's nearing 1am, it's raining, i'm cranky and low and behold who calls me? sam. no, not my sister sam.. but THE sam. how, oh how, she got my number is beyond me but the mere fact that she called ME at 12.30am is enough to make me want to stab people in the eye with little chopstix from chopstix town.

hell, i think i'd be a much happier person if being idiotic were a crime punishable by death.

death by hohos.
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Subject:Gar!
Time:07:04 pm
Current Mood:bitchybitchy
Now I fucking remember why I trashed LJ the first time. What the fuck is up with this constant timing out shit?
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Subject:........
Time:04:41 pm
Current Mood:bitchybitchy
this would go a lot smoother if lj wasn't so fucking annoying at times.
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